The few things that I am passionate about

I am a passionate person. But I am also lazy. If my heart is not in something for one reason of another, forget it. I need purpose, focus and motivation to get the things I love done. I am a dreamer, and like all of you I want to do things like learn French and play the bass, but unless I have a reason to do it, I probably won't do it. It's just how it is. 

I'm 18. Most people I know at my age are passionate about something or another. Music, human rights, partying, being controversial to name a few. In me lies a small amount passion for some of these things, but not enough for me to lay my life down for them. I would not cast aside everything sensible and logical to pursue a career in music or run a campaign for womens' rights. I guess I believe in these things but they don't get me right in my heart. They don't give me purpose. 

So what am I passionate about? What gets me motivated and focused? There are few things that get me up in the morning, but these never fail:

1. The Gospel
2. People
3. Missions

I'm not even kidding. There are a lot of things I waste my time on (namely the internet) but nothing in the world makes me go more insanely excited than Jesus and the fact that, not only does He love me, but He wants me to tell others that the same applies to them. 

I am not some extra-holiness-points, perfect-werfect super-Christian. I have recently been very bad at spending time reading my Bible and praying. I sometimes laugh at inappropriate jokes (I am not proud of this, just to clarify), I find Vines of people falling over and hurting themselves very funny and I often spend time in worship on Sundays looking up at the ceiling telling God that I am what a rubbish person I am. (Sorry if that all sounds a bit weird - I'm just trying to be real with you.)

But this is why I am passionate about these 3 things listed above. 

I often feel very unworthy of God's attention and yet somehow He still draws close to my heart and opens doors for me to encourage other people or tell them about His love even on my really bad days. 

"My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness..."

I love the Gospel and its effect on people. The way it changes everything. I love that I can do nothing to convince people that God is real and that He is the one who does that, not me. 

I feel passionate about missions - home and away. This year I am doing an internship at my church as a youth worker. I haven't ever really felt passionate about working with youth specifically, like, I never got a calling from God labelled ''Youth Ministry''. But... I have a passion for people. And youth are people. I love people my age and how weird we all are. How we're working life out and making and breaking conclusions about how we think the world spins. I love that God has put me at my school and in my church's youth team to build up, encourage and pray for people who are the next generation of parents, teachers, leaders and role models. I am part of that rising generation and everything I say to these kids I am also saying to the kid that's me. I am still learning and breaking and making conclusions about how the world spins. How humbling it is to be chosen despite my inexperience and imperfections to serve those struggling with the same things as me...

My mission field right now is Folkestone. I love Folkestone. I am passionate about Folkestone. 

My motivation is the unconditional love God has for me. I want to touch Folkestone with the love that He pours on and through me every day. 

My life has no worth without Jesus. Everything else becomes boring and has me staring out the window after a while. But He will never become boring and the only reason I want to find myself staring out the window is because I'm dreaming about reaching all those lost people out there that need to meet their loving, ever-gracious Saviour.

What are YOU passionate about?